New Blog

called Hopes and Feelings.
yeah... i might delete this one.
i dunno. we'll see.
but future posts will be on that blog.
... if anyone cares.

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What I am thankful for.

I read Katie's list and I decided that I should write down what I'm thankful for. The only thing I felt that I was thankful for on Thanksgiving was that I don't always have a migraine. I realize it's late, but that's ok. it's quite long, so you can skip down to the part about you if you want =]

• I'm thankful for my parents for providing me with the necessities of life and for giving me knowledge, and for loving me no matter what I choose or do.
• My sister for all the laughs we've shared, and for the things she's taught me.
• Katie for being the strongest friend that I've ever had, and for always being there for me, and being my best friend regardless of my flaws.
• Jacob for so many things. For giving me advice, answers to my problems, comforting me through tough times, and for still being my friend no matter how much I've creeped him out by telling him the things that I do. =]
• Matt and Clint for becoming two of my best friends in ninth grade, and for all the laughs we've shared. From spooning fiend, to playing apples to apples, we've shared a lot of laughs.
• Madi for being one of the best friends I've ever had who understands me, and puts up with my craziness (mostly because she's crazy too =] )
• Mac for cheering me up in health when I come storming in, yelling about some stupid person.
• Brother Rivera for teaching me so much about the gospel and making it a blast.
• Dan and Philly for being there to listen to all my problems that Katie and Jacob got tired of listening to.
• Mr. C for letting me talk to him every day after school about my problems and for being one of my favorite teachers.
• My young women leaders for loving me and getting me to come to young womens even if I don't want to, and making it worthwhile when the girls there don't.
• Ms. Porter for teaching me all about music and pushing me to do my best. Even though she was a pain, it has really paid off.
• Jill Hixson for being the nicest voice teacher ever, and being easy to talk to, and also pushing me my hardest. From teaching me about breathing correctly, to teaching me German and how to play Moon River on the guitar, I have learned a lot from her.
• Markus for putting up with me no matter how crazy I am, and for being my friend, and letting me rant to him when I need to.
• Miles for countless little things he's done to brighten my day, even if he doesn't realize he has. and for also putting up with my craziness and being my friend.
• Kohl for being there to talk about anything and for being able to make me smile so much. and for holding the record of almost anyone of making my day so often. =]
• Josh for becoming a very close friend and for all that he's done.
• Shelby and Lizzie for being two of my closest friends recently and for all the laughs we've shared.
• Mr. Stucki for pushing me and helping me get better at the long jump, and Mehrish for helping me become a better sprinter.
• Nick for being my boy with a glue gun when my heart was broken.
• Kody for helping me get through something that almost no one else could, and reminding me to turn to God with my problems and it will turn out ok.
• Shellie and Robbie for being my friends through EFY and being the amazing people that they are.
• Julie because she's been such a great friend, and nothing but nice.
• Hillary for being one of the many who is so helpful to me in my times of need and for always being able to lift my spirits so high I could soar.
• Christian for being... well... Christian.
• For Quin for making me smile so much and for being the most gospel centered person I know. Also for reminding me to turn to God in the worst of times and to pray and read the scriptures for answers. He lifts my spirits up so much and I always feel so happy when I talk to him.
• For the Hohls for being my favorite family ever.
• For Briggs. For showing me as much as he has and for being... him. thank you for all the laughs, and hugs we've shared.
• For music to brighten my mood or to help me mope when I feel it's necessary.
• For my iPod to hold that music on, even if the computer is being ridiculous and deleting all that music...
• For Seussical and all the friends I made from it, and the good times I had. Also, for the Thief Lord, The King and I, Fiddler on the Roof, and The Music Man, and all the memories and friends I gained from those amazing experiences.
• For movies and ice cream to help me feel better whenever I'm down. screw chocolate.
• For the rain and it's healing powers.
• For neighbors to throw a frisbee with.
• For a roof over my head, clothes, and food to feed me.
• My cell phone/texting which has brought smiles and tears.
• For teddy bears that are there to hug when no one else is.
• For all my extended family that keeps growing and how amazing and fun they are.
• And finally, for God and the gift of the Holy Ghost to comfort me in times of need. Also for the scriptures which hold the answers to everything, and prayer. the line to God that is open 24/7, and you never get a busy signal.

I am thankful for a lot of things, and writing this down has made me realize how lucky I am to be blessed with so many amazing people and things in my life. I realize that God is to thank for all of this, because he saw fit to bless me with these people. I love you all, and thank you for everything you do.

this one is for Julie =]

haha Julie commented the other day at lunch that I haven't written in my blog in forever, so I thought I would. my Seussical experience was one of the best experiences ever. I made lots of new friends and got closer with some older friends. my Who family consisted of Paige Jolley, Ashley Walker, Josh Goates, Trevor (?), Rachel Tanner, and Josh Burri. We were the biggest family and they made us split up for some of the stuff. Practices started out twice a week, pretty easy. but then when we got closer to opening, we had practices every day for about two weeks. We even had Friday and Saturday practices!! but it was great fun.
I became friends with the kid who played the Grinch, his name is Ebbie. the first day I saw him walking around in character, I told him he was my new hero =] he was the best person for the Grinch that you could get other than Jim Carrey. he must have watched and watched and watched How The Grinch Stole Christmas because he was exactly how Jim Carrey was in that movie. He was AMAZING. He still is my hero =] I remember last night laying with him in front of one of the fans backstage =] he was just laying there and Rachel made a comment about it and I was like I'm going to go lay by Ebbie. so I did =] but he won't answer to Ebbie when he's in character so I had to call him Mr. Grinch.
I had already known five of the Wickersham brothers and got to know the sixth, Josh, throughout the play. I remember standing backstage, waiting to go on and Josh was across the way and he was dancing for some reason, and he saw me watching him and he just tore open his vest and threw his head back, it was the funniest thing! thats how he and I became friends =]
Gabe Spencer was another Wickersham (dare I say the hottest?) and he was in my math class (he transferred out, dunno why) but one day in math, it was after the Shakespeare team came back after their thinger and he had to tape over the swords on his Shakespeare team shirt and he turns to me and he's like: "hey will you write some stuff on this tape?" it was probably one of the more awkward things I've done... but hey, it made us friends!! I will admit, after seeing Gabe in Beauty and the Beast last year, I had a huge crush. it was kind of a shocker that he was in my math class! he isn't any more though =[
anyways, this is getting pretty long, i'll continue it in the future =]

dude what the freak.

give me some feedback here... do i have the complete right to hurt a guy/push him in the pool and tell him to go drown when he says he has a huge crush on me and holds my hand and comes over to my house then FORGETS ME?! i mean HONESTLY!! am i that easy to forget?! ouch!! stab, twist!! ok so today Philly invited me to this party at the park full of West Jordan high people. they all seemed pretty cool and John was there and i made a new friend named Nikki. so Greg (the stupid butt that i was referring to) was working at the pool as a life guard so i say hey Philly lets walk over there and say hi. so we do. i get there and he's like HI! who are you?? i'm like what the freaking heck. i stood there with my mouth open, about ready to get up on his stupid life guard stand and beat the crap out of him. i'm not sure why i didn't actually. i mean who cares if i got thrown out?? it was the rec center in west jordan, it's not like i'm ever gonna be there again... geez well i think i should have told him to go drown and then pushed him in the pool. stupid git.

& I'll keep holding on

there are other fish in the sea.

to prove you that i wont fall, i'll keep holding on, staying strong.

We don’t have time left to regret (hold on)
It will take more than common sense (hold on)
So stop your wondering take a stand (hold on)
There's more to life than just to live (hold on)

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

One single smile a helping hand
It's not that hard to be a friend
So don’t give up stand 'til the end
There's more to life than just to live

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When it falls apart
And your feeling lost
All your hope is gone
don’t forget to hold on, hold on

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

~The Jonas Brothers

happiness

"Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy -- because we will always want to have something else or something more."

"Those who bring sunshine into the lives of others, cannot keep it from themselves."

" The Constitution only guarantees the American people the right to pursue happiness. You have to catch it yourself."

Recently, I have "caught happiness", and I have two people to thank for that. To Jacob, for being the root of this happiness. You have made me smile so much in the past few weeks, that its affected my mood, and hopefully the moods and happiness of the people around me. Thank you, Jacob, for everything you've done for me.
And thanks to Katie for always being there for me and listening to every silly little thing I have to say, laughing at my jokes, and for changing my life...for the better. I know it sounds like that stupid song in the Wicked medley, but you have changed my life and I'm so happy that you're my best friend. I would be so unhappy without you.

Thanks, guys :]

Summer

Fall in love or fall in hate.
Get inspired or be depressed.
Ace a test or flunk a class.
Speak the truth or lie and cheat.
Dance on the tables or stand in the corner.
Life is divine chaos. Embrace it.
Forgive yourself. Breathe.
And enjoy the ride.

So that was a random quote, but I like it.

The more I think about summer, the more I want to lay in the grass in shorts and a tank top with the sun beating down on me, and the more I want school to get out. The more I want to go to California and chill with my cousins and go to the beach and run around in flip-flops. So, I'm starting to make plans of everything I'm going to do this summer so it will be unforgettable. I'm not going to be doing soccer every single day of the summer, so I'm really looking forward to it this year because I will have a life. It makes me pretty excited. Summer is about staying up late and sleeping in. It's about letting go all of your cares and worries, they won't be back until September. It's about having fun and making memories. Thank goodness we don't go to year round school! You make new friends, but still keep the old ones. You meet hot guys, and flirt it up.

I'm planning on going on a road trip to Cali with whoever will take me, and spend a week or two with my favorite uncle and cousins, go to the beach and get a tan, draw in the sand, dance and swim and act like an idiot in the ocean, go to Balboa Island and eat a Balboa bar, get some shopping done, flirt with the hot guys I meet, and have an amazing summer. And if I end up going to Cali alone, I don't care! I'm going to live it up and have a lot of fun. And I just found out that one of my favorite cousins is joining the Navy, so I won't see him this summer. But he's coming to our reunion so that will be fun. But the bottom line, summer is about having fun, and I'm really excited for summer 2008 :]