What I am thankful for.

I read Katie's list and I decided that I should write down what I'm thankful for. The only thing I felt that I was thankful for on Thanksgiving was that I don't always have a migraine. I realize it's late, but that's ok. it's quite long, so you can skip down to the part about you if you want =]

• I'm thankful for my parents for providing me with the necessities of life and for giving me knowledge, and for loving me no matter what I choose or do.
• My sister for all the laughs we've shared, and for the things she's taught me.
• Katie for being the strongest friend that I've ever had, and for always being there for me, and being my best friend regardless of my flaws.
• Jacob for so many things. For giving me advice, answers to my problems, comforting me through tough times, and for still being my friend no matter how much I've creeped him out by telling him the things that I do. =]
• Matt and Clint for becoming two of my best friends in ninth grade, and for all the laughs we've shared. From spooning fiend, to playing apples to apples, we've shared a lot of laughs.
• Madi for being one of the best friends I've ever had who understands me, and puts up with my craziness (mostly because she's crazy too =] )
• Mac for cheering me up in health when I come storming in, yelling about some stupid person.
• Brother Rivera for teaching me so much about the gospel and making it a blast.
• Dan and Philly for being there to listen to all my problems that Katie and Jacob got tired of listening to.
• Mr. C for letting me talk to him every day after school about my problems and for being one of my favorite teachers.
• My young women leaders for loving me and getting me to come to young womens even if I don't want to, and making it worthwhile when the girls there don't.
• Ms. Porter for teaching me all about music and pushing me to do my best. Even though she was a pain, it has really paid off.
• Jill Hixson for being the nicest voice teacher ever, and being easy to talk to, and also pushing me my hardest. From teaching me about breathing correctly, to teaching me German and how to play Moon River on the guitar, I have learned a lot from her.
• Markus for putting up with me no matter how crazy I am, and for being my friend, and letting me rant to him when I need to.
• Miles for countless little things he's done to brighten my day, even if he doesn't realize he has. and for also putting up with my craziness and being my friend.
• Kohl for being there to talk about anything and for being able to make me smile so much. and for holding the record of almost anyone of making my day so often. =]
• Josh for becoming a very close friend and for all that he's done.
• Shelby and Lizzie for being two of my closest friends recently and for all the laughs we've shared.
• Mr. Stucki for pushing me and helping me get better at the long jump, and Mehrish for helping me become a better sprinter.
• Nick for being my boy with a glue gun when my heart was broken.
• Kody for helping me get through something that almost no one else could, and reminding me to turn to God with my problems and it will turn out ok.
• Shellie and Robbie for being my friends through EFY and being the amazing people that they are.
• Julie because she's been such a great friend, and nothing but nice.
• Hillary for being one of the many who is so helpful to me in my times of need and for always being able to lift my spirits so high I could soar.
• Christian for being... well... Christian.
• For Quin for making me smile so much and for being the most gospel centered person I know. Also for reminding me to turn to God in the worst of times and to pray and read the scriptures for answers. He lifts my spirits up so much and I always feel so happy when I talk to him.
• For the Hohls for being my favorite family ever.
• For Briggs. For showing me as much as he has and for being... him. thank you for all the laughs, and hugs we've shared.
• For music to brighten my mood or to help me mope when I feel it's necessary.
• For my iPod to hold that music on, even if the computer is being ridiculous and deleting all that music...
• For Seussical and all the friends I made from it, and the good times I had. Also, for the Thief Lord, The King and I, Fiddler on the Roof, and The Music Man, and all the memories and friends I gained from those amazing experiences.
• For movies and ice cream to help me feel better whenever I'm down. screw chocolate.
• For the rain and it's healing powers.
• For neighbors to throw a frisbee with.
• For a roof over my head, clothes, and food to feed me.
• My cell phone/texting which has brought smiles and tears.
• For teddy bears that are there to hug when no one else is.
• For all my extended family that keeps growing and how amazing and fun they are.
• And finally, for God and the gift of the Holy Ghost to comfort me in times of need. Also for the scriptures which hold the answers to everything, and prayer. the line to God that is open 24/7, and you never get a busy signal.

I am thankful for a lot of things, and writing this down has made me realize how lucky I am to be blessed with so many amazing people and things in my life. I realize that God is to thank for all of this, because he saw fit to bless me with these people. I love you all, and thank you for everything you do.

this one is for Julie =]

haha Julie commented the other day at lunch that I haven't written in my blog in forever, so I thought I would. my Seussical experience was one of the best experiences ever. I made lots of new friends and got closer with some older friends. my Who family consisted of Paige Jolley, Ashley Walker, Josh Goates, Trevor (?), Rachel Tanner, and Josh Burri. We were the biggest family and they made us split up for some of the stuff. Practices started out twice a week, pretty easy. but then when we got closer to opening, we had practices every day for about two weeks. We even had Friday and Saturday practices!! but it was great fun.
I became friends with the kid who played the Grinch, his name is Ebbie. the first day I saw him walking around in character, I told him he was my new hero =] he was the best person for the Grinch that you could get other than Jim Carrey. he must have watched and watched and watched How The Grinch Stole Christmas because he was exactly how Jim Carrey was in that movie. He was AMAZING. He still is my hero =] I remember last night laying with him in front of one of the fans backstage =] he was just laying there and Rachel made a comment about it and I was like I'm going to go lay by Ebbie. so I did =] but he won't answer to Ebbie when he's in character so I had to call him Mr. Grinch.
I had already known five of the Wickersham brothers and got to know the sixth, Josh, throughout the play. I remember standing backstage, waiting to go on and Josh was across the way and he was dancing for some reason, and he saw me watching him and he just tore open his vest and threw his head back, it was the funniest thing! thats how he and I became friends =]
Gabe Spencer was another Wickersham (dare I say the hottest?) and he was in my math class (he transferred out, dunno why) but one day in math, it was after the Shakespeare team came back after their thinger and he had to tape over the swords on his Shakespeare team shirt and he turns to me and he's like: "hey will you write some stuff on this tape?" it was probably one of the more awkward things I've done... but hey, it made us friends!! I will admit, after seeing Gabe in Beauty and the Beast last year, I had a huge crush. it was kind of a shocker that he was in my math class! he isn't any more though =[
anyways, this is getting pretty long, i'll continue it in the future =]

dude what the freak.

give me some feedback here... do i have the complete right to hurt a guy/push him in the pool and tell him to go drown when he says he has a huge crush on me and holds my hand and comes over to my house then FORGETS ME?! i mean HONESTLY!! am i that easy to forget?! ouch!! stab, twist!! ok so today Philly invited me to this party at the park full of West Jordan high people. they all seemed pretty cool and John was there and i made a new friend named Nikki. so Greg (the stupid butt that i was referring to) was working at the pool as a life guard so i say hey Philly lets walk over there and say hi. so we do. i get there and he's like HI! who are you?? i'm like what the freaking heck. i stood there with my mouth open, about ready to get up on his stupid life guard stand and beat the crap out of him. i'm not sure why i didn't actually. i mean who cares if i got thrown out?? it was the rec center in west jordan, it's not like i'm ever gonna be there again... geez well i think i should have told him to go drown and then pushed him in the pool. stupid git.

& I'll keep holding on

there are other fish in the sea.

to prove you that i wont fall, i'll keep holding on, staying strong.

We don’t have time left to regret (hold on)
It will take more than common sense (hold on)
So stop your wondering take a stand (hold on)
There's more to life than just to live (hold on)

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

One single smile a helping hand
It's not that hard to be a friend
So don’t give up stand 'til the end
There's more to life than just to live

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When it falls apart
And your feeling lost
All your hope is gone
don’t forget to hold on, hold on

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

~The Jonas Brothers

happiness

"Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy -- because we will always want to have something else or something more."

"Those who bring sunshine into the lives of others, cannot keep it from themselves."

" The Constitution only guarantees the American people the right to pursue happiness. You have to catch it yourself."

Recently, I have "caught happiness", and I have two people to thank for that. To Jacob, for being the root of this happiness. You have made me smile so much in the past few weeks, that its affected my mood, and hopefully the moods and happiness of the people around me. Thank you, Jacob, for everything you've done for me.
And thanks to Katie for always being there for me and listening to every silly little thing I have to say, laughing at my jokes, and for changing my life...for the better. I know it sounds like that stupid song in the Wicked medley, but you have changed my life and I'm so happy that you're my best friend. I would be so unhappy without you.

Thanks, guys :]

Summer

Fall in love or fall in hate.
Get inspired or be depressed.
Ace a test or flunk a class.
Speak the truth or lie and cheat.
Dance on the tables or stand in the corner.
Life is divine chaos. Embrace it.
Forgive yourself. Breathe.
And enjoy the ride.

So that was a random quote, but I like it.

The more I think about summer, the more I want to lay in the grass in shorts and a tank top with the sun beating down on me, and the more I want school to get out. The more I want to go to California and chill with my cousins and go to the beach and run around in flip-flops. So, I'm starting to make plans of everything I'm going to do this summer so it will be unforgettable. I'm not going to be doing soccer every single day of the summer, so I'm really looking forward to it this year because I will have a life. It makes me pretty excited. Summer is about staying up late and sleeping in. It's about letting go all of your cares and worries, they won't be back until September. It's about having fun and making memories. Thank goodness we don't go to year round school! You make new friends, but still keep the old ones. You meet hot guys, and flirt it up.

I'm planning on going on a road trip to Cali with whoever will take me, and spend a week or two with my favorite uncle and cousins, go to the beach and get a tan, draw in the sand, dance and swim and act like an idiot in the ocean, go to Balboa Island and eat a Balboa bar, get some shopping done, flirt with the hot guys I meet, and have an amazing summer. And if I end up going to Cali alone, I don't care! I'm going to live it up and have a lot of fun. And I just found out that one of my favorite cousins is joining the Navy, so I won't see him this summer. But he's coming to our reunion so that will be fun. But the bottom line, summer is about having fun, and I'm really excited for summer 2008 :]

the Real game

So on Saturday, I had a lot going on! I was supposed to get up at seven to be at Hillcrest for our track fundraiser. Well..I kinda slept through it. But then, Katie and I went to the guys' soccer game at Rice Eccles. They were playing before Real. So, we got there with about ten minutes left in the first half, and I was freaking pissed off that I didn't get to see Clint play much, which was most of the reason I was going. I guess I went for Anthony and Logan too, but not very many other people. Logan did freaking amazing, and Anthony did good too, he just didn't get much action. And Tiffer....well....no one was very happy with Tiffer after the game. Haha oh man, he messed up and he goes: "SHIT!!!!!" so freaking loud I was laughing so hard because I had never heard Tiffer swear before and apparently he does it a lot. And then there's Jacob...I thought he did pretty well for the part that I saw him play. And Hillcrest won the game of course :D so about an hour after their game got over, Real was playing. (I have to admit, I have absolutely no idea who was playing them because I really only cared about the guys' game. I was freakin out during their game I was all: "COME ON HILLCREST LETS GO!!!!!" and during the Real game I was totally chill. Haha it was great.) During the Hillcrest game, it was freaking FREEZING. Me and Katie were sitting there bundled up, and Katie had her hood on. Haha Katie's hood is fuzzy around the edges. So, Anthony was on the sideline, so he texted me and he goes: wave your arm!! and I didn't want to, so Katie told me to tell him: If you can't see me, I'm sitting by the freak in the hood. Oh man I was laughing so hard at that and I don't even know why, it really wasn't that funny. I think I just needed an excuse to laugh really hard. Because if I start laughing at nothing, I get the strangest looks! * So, after, most of the guys came and they were sitting around where Katie and I were sitting. And it just so happens, Jacob was sitting a few rows down from us. Ashton and Clint came and sat with us, so that was fun. And Marlie's older brother, Jeff was behind us, and then Logan and his family were a few rows up and then Tiffer was sitting like a ways behind us. But anyway, so I saw Jacob and I really wanted to say hi but I didn't want to yell his name, so I made Ashton do it haha. He goes: KUNZ!! And he turns around and me and Ashton are sitting there smiling and waving. He said hey to Ashton and then he nodded at me. You know when guys do that thing...they...gosh I don't know how to explain it but they give you a head nod...yeah anyways. So Anthony, silly goose, was a ball boy so I didn't get to talk to him much :[ but during half-time he came up and said hi to me and gave me the hug he owed me. So he sad down and I kinda cuddled up next to him because I was freaking FREEZING and then guess who comes up?? The devil himself. He sits next to Anthony. You have to understand, by this time I'm wondering what strange phenomenon is going on that Jacob would actually sit on the same bench as me. Crazy enough, he stayed for most of the second half. Even after Anthony left!! And he was actually talking to me!!! Wow it was crazy. So Clint and Katie were off in their own little world talking about something I had no idea what they were talking about, so I was talking to Ashton and Jake. Mostly Ashton...but anyways so Ashton got hungry, so he went to get something to eat. So, its basically just me and Jacob by this time. We started talking to each other more...and well...I'm really glad I got to talk to him for a while. It was a good time :D But the thing that confuses me is, I don't know how he feels about me. He obviously doesn't think I'm so annoying he can't stand me, otherwise he would have just left when Anthony did... but he didn't. Anthony thought he was jealous of me warming up with Anthony otherwise he wouldn't have come up to talk but I really don't know... anyways point being, Saturday was a great time :]

* So, I there's this guy on the track team that I have a crush on...his name is Daniel. So, the other day at track, we were doing a team ab work out and I was by Quinci and I was like hey, Quinc I'm going to go sit by Daniel! She rolled her eyes and followed me. So I walk over and I'm like Hey Daniel! I decided to come over here today! and he goes: yeah, because its so much better over here!! and I was like: yeah, and the sights are better too. Meaning that he's good looking haha and so he didn't get it which I thought was was funny. But we were doing the flutter kick ab workout, and I found it was easier to do it when I was laughing, so I just started laughing at absolutely NOTHING!!! and Quinci and Daniel gave me the strangest looks!! I even explained to them why I was laughing but they didn't get it haha anyways...I just get strange looks when I laugh at nothing.

This is what I learned today.

I put on my best, and I stick out my chest, and I'm off to the races again.

Today I learned to stick my head up high in the air,
and let it go.
He's not worth my tears.
I'm going to throw my feelings for him away.
He doesn't mean a thing to me.

My new song needs a title

So, today I've been working on a new song. It's coming along rather nicely :] here are the lyrics:

Verse 1: My stomach is sick and I don't know what to do.
Because you're walking out of my life and there's nothing I can do.
Every thought of you makes my stomach churn because I know I'm not that girl.

Chorus: We're falling apart, so far apart.
What happened to the way we used to be?
I miss you so much it's pathetic.
I'm not sure how much longer I can keep it together.

Verse 2: When I gave you my heart I trusted you not to break it and now that it's finally broken,
I see that I was wrong to trust you with such a fragile thing.

Chorus

Verse 3: Each mention of your name is like another stab to my already bleeding heart.
I pass you in the hall and see your arm around her,
I tear my eyes away from that beautiful face, hiding silent tears.

Verse 4: Your song comes on the radio as I lay on my bed.
I run to the bathroom, and pull my hair back from my face as I lean over the toilet.
Sides heaving, I sit and put my hands on my tear stained face.
I'm sick of trying to keep it together.

Chorus: We're falling apart, so far apart.
We used to be such good of friends. What happened?
I miss you so much its pathetic.
I can't keep it together anymore.
I can't keep it together anymore.


So yeah, I agree with Clint that it's rather depressing. But, hey. I think it's pretty good.
And Katie, the music part is coming along ok...but I would love it if you would like to help me with that area :D But tell me what you guys thing :] And ideas for a title too :]

Happy Nicholas Jerry Jonas Day!!!!!

It's Nicholas Jerry Jonas day, everyone!!!!! Yep. I'm celebrating by listening to all the Jonas Brothers music I can, and thinking about all the amazing things Nick has done for the world :D We love you Nick!!!!! <3

~a better outlook on life~

When I was young
I use to dream of being rich
Have alot of houses and cars
Couldn't know which one was which
And finding me a chick and getting hitched
Living the fairy tale life perfect without a ditch
You think that this would bring me happiness
If at the end of every rainbow
There was a treasure chest
Sometimes having more is really less
So take a look inside yourself
You'll realize you're really blessed
No matter how you're sad and blue
There's always someone who has it worse than you
Sometimes you gotta pay your dues
So don't worry just push on through

Keep'n it real
Gotta big up all my peoples who be working on the future
Though they know they gotta struggle
Keep'n it real
To all my homies working on the 9 to 5
And doing right to keep themselves up out of trouble
Keep'n it real
Although sometimes I know it seems impossible
There ain't no need in drowning in your sorrows
Keep'n it real
If things are as bad as they can be
You can be sure there'll be a brighter tomorrow

I never got to have myself the house, the mansion, and the Benz
I'm not the type of brother who be making mad ends
I got myself a girl but we be kickin' it as friends
Is not enough for me now that depends
Again- not everthing you want is everything you really need
The standard is motovatived by greed
Are you prepared to follow
Tell me are you prepared to lead
So persevere and you'll suceed

Keep'n it real
Gotta big up all my peoples who be working on the future
Though they know they gotta struggle
Keep'n it real
To all my homies working on the 9 to 5
And doing right to keep themselves up out of trouble
Keep'n it real
Although sometimes I know it seems impossible
There ain't no need in drowning in your sorrows
Keep'n it real
If things are as bad as they can be
You can be sure there'll be a brighter tomorrow

All the harsh realities
Appears to come two's and three's
Don't worry cuz
There'll be a better day
One thing I can promise you
Just keep on keeping on
I swear to you
There's gonna be a brighter day

Back in the days
I use to dream of being rich
Have alot of houses and cars
Couldn't know which one was which
And finding me a chick and getting hitched
Living the fairy tale life perfect witout a ditch
You think that this would bring me happiness
If at the end of every rainbow there was a treasure chest
Sometimes having more is really less
So take a look inside yourself
You'll realize you're really blessed
No matter how you're sad and blue
There's always someone who has it worse than you
Sometimes you gotta pay your dues
So don't worry just push on through

Keep'n it real
Gotta big up all my peoples who be working on the future
Though they know they gotta struggle
Keep'n it real
To all my homies working on the 9 to 5
And doing right to keep themselves up out of trouble
Keep'n it real
Although sometimes I know it seems impossible
There ain't no need in drowning in your sorrows
Keep'n it real
If things are as bad as they can be
You can be sure there'll be a brighter tomorrow
~Shaggy

That's pretty much one of my favorite songs. And I've realized that you really shouldn't take what you have for granted and with some things, you don't really know what you have until it's gone. Like that song Nick sang at the concert... I mean, I know that I have an amazing best friend, but I don't think that I really do understand how much she helps, and how valuable she is. And I kind of take for granted what I have with the guy I like, and I want more to happen, but I should just be happy in knowing that he likes me too and that we are friends. Because you never know, something could happen and I just need to realize that what I have is good for now, I shouldn't push this. Katie's told me that before, but it really takes some time for things so sink in for me. So I guess I owe all this to Katie. Remember, if your day is as bad as it can get, you can be sure that tomorrow will be better, and there's always someone who has it worse. So, don't worry. Because every little thing is gonna be alright.
So, thanks to Katie, Hillary, Shaggy, and Bob Marley for helping me get through hard times through music, or just a talk, they really help me no matter what it is :] thanks. love you, Katie and Hillary :]

and Katie, remember, there are other fish in the sea. like your blonde guy from the movies!! and i really will smack scott for you :D

track

track is going pretty well i guess...and according to coach i'm getting stronger because when you ache your muscles are weak. okay then...anyway. so last night i was taking a bubble bath to mabe soothe my sore muscles, and i was texting while i was in the tub and i guess it was just too humid or something in there for my phone..it went crazy. and it was like right while i was in a conversation with jacob. it pissed me off so bad. so today i couldn't text anyone and that sucked. but during track, i had to pee, so i went in to pee and i got a drink, and i saw Anthony (he's the same age as jacob...going to be a senior next year while i'm a stupid little sophomore *sigh*) and so i started talking to anthony, and me and anthony have been good buddies since seventh grade (he was my stand partner in guitar haha) and so i talked to him for a while and then jacob came out of the locker room. well, like yesterday when i saw him he didn't look happy at all to see me... i was like hey jake! and hes like: Oh hi. why are you here? and i was like: well i had to pee and get a drink so i did and i saw anthony and came over to talk and here i am. and hes like oh, lucky anthony! and he was totally being sarcastic about it and it really hurt my feelings. it was just the way he said it becuase he said it and then he looked at anthony and laughed and i almost cried right then and there. fortunately, i kept it together all through the rest of track and through PTC's until i got home. and i also was like: so you're not going to give me a hug?? cuz he was walking away and i was being my usual playful self, and then hes like okay fine here's your hug. geez...you know how usually between guys and girls its usually the guy who's confused about how the girl acts??? yeah well its totally opposite between me and him. haha me and quinci were talking about the guys we like and shes like yeah my seminary man...well i 'm afraid he might kidnap miley cyrus and take her to prom and i was ranting about stupid religion and how jacobs not mormon and shes like okay, i will try and convert jacob if you make sure my seminary man doesn't kidnap miley cyrus and take her to prom!! and i was like okay deal!!! becuase i was talking about how i want him to be the same religion as me, for well...religious purposes sorta but i dont want to change who he is, you know?? and yeah it just kinda sucks so me and quinci made a deal haha i dont think its going to happen though...sadly. oh well. i guess i will just have to get over it and move on with life....

I can't wait

until p.s. i love you comes out on dvd. i need to find some money to buy it when it does come out. haha. OH new Jonas Brothers CD comes out this summer sometime. I think in...umm...June mabe?? I don't know I will have to ask Cindy. But you know..nothing really extremely exciting has happened to me in the past few days. Oh I don't know if I've already said this or not but I lent Alex my bouncy ball that is like three times the size of a normal bouncy ball, and so she was playing with it in the hall with Tri and stupid Tri got it taken away by the annoying hall monitor lady with gray hair. She threw it away!!! it was like THREE TIMES THE SIZE OF A REGULAR BOUNCY BALL!!!!!!!!!!! geez stupid Tri. OH. well. Jumper was a very good movie. Who ever didn't come that I invited, you should be sad you didn't come becuase it was a very good movie. I saw Max Thieriot and I was like DUDE! this is going to be a good movie!!! Then he grew up to be Hayden Christiensen which kind of ruined the whole thing. I mean he was good looking. until he grew up. "I will not grow up, you cannot make me!" he shouldn't have grown up haha. he should have stayed 15 and Max Thieriot for forever. That sounds like a good plan. Oh yeah so I've been reading Ripley's Believe It Or Not for the past couple of days and there is this hotel in Argentina that is dedicated to Batman. HOW COOL IS THAT?!?!?! And there's this hotel in Germany that has 30 wacky rooms. Theres one thats upsidedown, theres one like a coffin, there's one that is like a padded room for crazy people, and theres this one that has over 300 different tiles which all have different symbols on them. yeah I thought that was cool. So when me, Lizzi, Davee, and Colton go on our backpacking trip through Europe, we're going to that hotel. and we're getting authentic baklava :D haha wow I'm so excited!! We're going to get all our credits done before our senior year of high school and we're going to go to Europe and we're going to call the school and get over the intercom and say: HAHA! We're eating Italian and authentic European food while you're eating crap from the school lunchroom!! oh man. It's going to be great. Colton says I'm going to end up drunk, naked, and screaming in an alleyway somewhere in Venice but that's not going to happen. The drunk is definitely going to be Davee. Oh yeah and yesterday during lunch we played that game where you see who can yell penis the loudest and I was playing with all my guy friends, I was the only girl, and I won. haha so I guess I lied by saying the past few days have been event less. Shame on me for lying. Yeah so tomorrow we're going to Indian Hills for Solo and Ensemble and I really don't think we're going to get all ones. But okay so Kimmi and Melea are the best singers in the chior, everyone knows that. So they are doing a solo. But she had someone do a solo thats not even in the choir, she's playing piano for us. I mean, I love the girl but she can't have someone thats actually in the choir do it, like me and Katie?? I mean it kinda hurts that she obviously doesn't think we're good enough to do a solo or something. I HATE MS PORTER!!!! GAHHHHH!!! okay anyways. hopefully all will go smoothly tomorrow, yeah?

Valentines day was stupid. like usual.

Hey guys. I know you have heard me say a lot about how much I love the Jonas Brothers (specifically Nick :D ) but this takes the cake. I recently learned a lot about Diabetes and that it can actually kill you. Yeah, I didn't know that... so I became a lot more concerned for the people I know who have diabetes. A.K.A. Nick Jonas and everyone in Katie's family that has it. They obviously know how to take care of their diabetes but wouldn't it be nice if they didn't have it?? and we didn't have to worry at all?? There is a site made that is all about finding a cure for diabetes. You can donate money to find a cure. Guys, this is a great cause and I mean how horrible would it be if someone you know died from diabetes??? I sure wouldn't be the same without Nick Jonas and neither would his family. And the same goes for Katie and her family. So please, guys go to their site and try to find a way to help find a cure. www.waitingonacure.com



and continuing with my day...including the past few. Today I finally went to my first real audition!! I was so nervous. I did a cold read which was just a Pepsi ad. I guess I did ok... but yeah I'm hoping that mabe I have enough talent for someone...the extent of my Valentines was throwing candy at people and talking to Jacob on messenger. Haha yeah, that's pretty much what made my day. First of all, Colton was gone, and gee, Colton just makes my day usually since he's so funny haha. And then talking to Jacob on messenger just made getting up actually worth something. See, I got up at 5 AM to do wash and curl my hair (don't ask me why) and then it turns out we're going to school two hours later because of the snow. Now that's just messed up!!! Ugh. SO not doing that next Valentines. Next valentines....I don't even want to get out of bed and it's a year away haha. And....INDIANA JONES COMES OUT MAY 22ND!!!!!!!!!!!! oh yes! um john and phil and greg came over again. it wasn't so eventful this time... oh yes. and I'm very happy for Katie :D she found a new man who is from what I hear, pretty much a stud. yeah...I might continue my story later tonight, depending on if I have any new ideas and how late I want to stay up...

continuing previous story...it's titled How To Live Forever

I went over to Tyrone's bedside and looked at him. He was asleep. I have no idea how long I waited for him to wake up, but it seemed like forever. He started mumbling in his sleep a few times, I couldn't understand what it was about though. My iPod was down to half battery from being fully charged by the time he woke up. When I noticed he was awake, I ran over to his bedside and said: "How are you feeling, babe?" He smiled at me and replied:
"I'm doing great!" His smile fell. "But you on the other hand, don't look good at all. Now tell me, who got stabbed here?" I laughed and he chuckled and winced in pain.
"Ohhhh I'm sorry!!" I said, apologizing. He smiled and said it was fine. An alarm on my phone went off and so I looked down and was turning it off when he said, "Hey, babe, go home and get some sleep."
"But Ty, I don't want to leave you!"
"No, Trinitey. Go. Get some sleep." I looked into his eyes and it were as if he was pleading me with not just his voice but his eyes as well. I let is slide that he called me Trinitey on account of he was on a hospital bed. I sighed and said,
"Okay, call me in the morning." he smiled at me as I left the room. I was actually very surprised that I wasn't so shaken. But the more I thought about it, I started psyching myself out and getting very jumpy and worried the stabber was going to come for me next.
My parents were gone on business trip, and my brother was at band camp, so it was just me for a few weeks. When I got home I started whistling because by this time, I was very scared. "It's all in your mind, he's not coming after you," I kept telling myself. I went into my room and blared my music, and started singing really loudly and off key. Finally, I decided I should probably go to bed so I got my pajamas on and brushed my teeth and crawled into bed. As the events of the day finally sunk in, I started crying and cried myself to sleep.

Jonas Brothers concert

oh man. it was AMAZING. When they sang Hello Beautiful, Nick sang "I hear it's wonderful in Salt Lake City" instead of California. yeah I screamed so loud. wow it was great. and you know what??? I say BOO to all you people who say you hate them. you have no good reason for hating them besides not liking their music. and even then you dont go around saying oh they suck. i doubt most of the people who say that have even heard anything but Hold On and S.O.S. you can't say you hate a band when you have only heard two songs. so BOO ON YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

Here are some of the reasons I love them:
1. They can actually SING. they KNOW HOW
2. They are famous becuase of their talent, not because they know someone.
3. There is nothing you can have against them!! They are just all around good guys!!
4. They are AMAZING live and they aren't "Sick" every single concert like stupid miley cyrus.
5. The Joehawk will never go out of style, even if Joe decides to grow out his hair.
6. Curly hair is HAWT (just in case you didn't know)
7. They can do anything and always look sexy doing it :D
8. Nick is an amazing thrasher. And looks very hot doing it :D
9. They know how to play their instruments.
10. They have awesome guitars!!!
11. They have an ADORABLE little brother! (Frankie)
12. Nick can write a number one hit in ten minutes.
13. They are what they are and they will never change.
14. They'll Hold On forever and always.
15. No matter how harsh the lyrics the song ROX!
16. No matter how many gf's they have they will always be single :D
17. NICK JONAS IS JUST SO HOT!!!!
18. When they sing, it's just like they're singing straight to you!
19. They make you go crazy for them One Day At A Time
20. They'll never disappoint you.
21. They are always happy to see their fans and love them to death.
22. They're hotter than their friends.
23. They go crazy on stage and don't care what people think of what they do A.K.A. wearing ties around their heads :D
24. Nick is a stud muffin.
25. Kevin would like to sell you a car!!
26. Nick J is totally off the chain!!
27. Nick's hair is especially hot when its wet.
28. They get excited about the most random things.
29. Nick can break glass with his amazing voice.
30. He has an evil side too :D
31. Kevin has MAD ping pong skills
32. Nick is a WICKED drummer.
33. When they smile, you HAVE to smile on account of their smiles are so cute :D
34. No matter how confuzzled they get, they will always be hot!
35. Nick has muscles twice the size of any guy my age.
36. They look good even when they are sweaty.
37. They've been cute their whole lives and always will be.
38. They have a great sense of humor.
39. They have great style.
40. Nick always wears great shoes :D
41. They are all amazing musicians.
42. They aren't afraid to have fun.
43. Nick can rap :D
44. Nick looks good in a lei.
45. He can do amazing stuff with a volleyball.
46. They made Baby Bottle Pops cool again :D
47. No matter how many times you watch them say or do something, it never fails to make you laugh :D
48. Joe can do "Bet On It" better than Zac Efron.
49. THEY ROCK HARDER THAN HANNAH MONTANA!!!!!!! wait shes not even rock shes pop!!!! anyways they still rock hard and know how to rock on stage :D
50. Kevin does a way sick S.O.S. dance.
51. Nick can do an ariel on stage. (Can YOU do that?!?!?)
52. Nick plays drums, piano, guitar, AND he sings. *sighs happily*
53. They are three guys who can actually pull off wearing a tank top. (Epecially Nick on account of his muscles :D )
54. Joe knows the muffin man. And, he came to the year 3000 hahaha
55. Nick has his own show called the Nick J show :D
56. No matter how many times Joe hits Nick in the face with a plastic black bat, he's still gorgeous :D
57. Joe even looks good wrapped in a curtain hehe :D
58. Joe shops at Limited Too :D :D
59. Joe makes the Backstreet Boys cool with his ringtone haha
60. Even when Joe does a flip, and makes Nick fall over while they are rapping about their album coming out in a week, they are still cute :]
61. Joe advertises for In-N-Out Burger without realizing it
62. Nick is one of those guys who can sit there with a spoon in his mouth and still look sexy :D
63. Nick looks cute cross-eyed!!
64. Nick can still be romantic when he hits his funny bone on the guitar.
65. They're bringing sexy back :D
66. They've been to the year 3000 and back.
67. They have amazing music.

There you go, 67 reasons. Good enough for you stupid people who hate them????
and you know what?? even though i've been going on about their looks, I like them just for their music and not their looks. and I would like to see you come up with 67 good reasons for loving miley cyrus HAHAHAHAHAH have fun with that, losers.

anyway. Point made that the Jonas Brothers are amazing.

mah best friend :]

dude. lately, my best friend has been getting a lot of crap! and I really don't like it! I've noticed that my mood tends to reflect hers. I'm not saying that this just sucks for me, but I don't like it when my best friend is in a bad mood!! I love it when we are laughing and giggling over dumb things :] sometimes...not so dumb! but hey, laughter is the best medicine, right?
So Saturday night, Matt "broke up" with Katie. I love Matt, and he rarely pisses me off. But when he hurts my best friend- no, that is just unacceptable. I didn't talk to Matt as much today. All I said was hi Matt. Anyways...so Friday night, I'm treating Katie to a sleepover and we are eating junk and watching movies. Which we do on a regular basis anyways...but still. I'm excited, like I always am when we have sleepovers! And I just decided it's going to be kind of a "girly" sleepover. We're watching chick flicks (with the exception of Mulan), doing each others hair, nails...all that good stuff :] and...we're going to have a....PILLOW FIGHT!!!! hehe :] geez I'm totally psyched now :] haha
Well I guess the whole point of this blog is to show Katie how much I love her and that I'm swearing right now, never to get in a fight with her. We have never fought. (I'm proud to say that :] ) However...I did snap at her once and I apologized like a million times for it. I would feel too bad to get in a fight with her! I mean, we disagree but we say, hey we're totally opposite anyway, and move on with life!!
Anyway...Katie, I love you :]

today was great :]

I sang, I pretty much screamed in Patrick's face that he has no idea what love is and that you can experience love no matter how young or old you are, John, Phil, and Greg came over. John white-washed me twice haha. and Phil threw the basketball to me and it had a bunch of snow on it and the snow came off when I caught it and it went down my shirt. DANG that was cold!! And we watched Ten Things I Hate About You and the Princess Bride. dang...we had some fun during those movies :] except for the fact that John and I were having a pillow fight and he nailed me in each eye. and I threw them at him like a Frisbee and well I have horrible aim hahahaha. but oh my gosh today was a great day. better than i have had since...well Tuesday. Well. the after school part of Tuesday. Wow...the guy I like a lot he texted me when I was in 7th period and he's like: I am at Midvale. and I started shaking like none other. now, when I get nervous I start shaking and i really can't stop! it took everything I had not to book it down to my locker. I was like almost skipping though haha but there was like three minutes left before the bell rang and I swear those were some of the longest three minutes of my life!! So that was good. Until he left. Anyway, the point, today was really good :]

geez

Heath Ledger. Is dead. *sobs*
We will all miss him, and my sympathies go out to his family. So sad to die at such a young age...
but remember my last blog? yeah, well the guy I was talking about...he came to my school yesterday, and he came and said hi and we talked for a while, and gee he asked for like 5 hugs and I'm always the one asking for hugs, and it was someone else this time. hehe :] yeah that was the highlight of my day. Of course it was only after that I found out about Heath Ledger... so yesterday was kindof an up and down day...and today...well today just sucked.

New story

So this is my first blog. And the beginning to a story.

I looked at her pale, lifeless face and her figure started to blur. I turned and buried my face into Tyrone's coat. I tried to choke back my tears, but they came freely. He kissed the top of my head and pulled me closer to him.
My best friend was dead, and there was nothing I could do about it. I would never be the same. I choked on my spit, quite loudly, so Tyrone picked me up and swept me into his arms, and carried me away from the open grave. I cried myself to sleep, right there in his arms. When I woke up, Tyrone was sitting down up against a tree, and it was dark with lots of stars in the sky.
"Hey, beautiful." he said as he kissed me. I smiled. And then everything came rushing back and I quickly let the night air into my lungs and rested my head on Tyrone's chest.
"Tyrone, do you think I will see Abigail again?" I asked. He was silent for a few minutes. "Do you think there is a heaven?"
"I'm not sure, Trinitey." I punched him lightly "What?!" He protested
"I told you, I hate that name."
"And I told you, I think it's pretty." I grunted and he laughed.
Suddenly, a twig snapped. Tyrone's head shot up and his beautiful smile fell. I started shaking, like I always do when I'm scared. I wish I could help it, but I can't. He grabbed my hands to stop their shaking and slowly stood up, with me still in his arms.
"Put me down," I whispered. Tyrone did so, and he peeked around a tree. We both saw a dark figure, standing there in the mist of the park. Tyrone turned with his back to the tree, I did the same. When we both had the guts to turn around to see where the stranger was, he was right in front of us. I screamed and grabbed Tyrone's hand. I ran in the opposite direction, but Tyrone's hand slipped from mine. I turned and he was sinking onto the ground.
"TYRONE!!!" A knife was in his stomach. I looked around but the stranger had disappeared. I shakily pulled out my cell phone and dialed 911. "Yes, I have an emergency at Westridge park. I need an ambulance."
"What is the nature of your emergency?"
"Well my boyfriend has been stabbed and I need an ambulance."
"Is he breathing?"
"Yes, Ma'am! And I need an ambulance!!" I said getting impatient. "There is blood everywhere!!"
"Very well, we will send an ambulance as soon as possible." Then she hung up. Gosh, what did I need to do to get some medical attention around here?? I looked at Tyrone, his face was twisted in pain, just the way Abigail's looked as she was dying in front of me, with nothing I could do. Tears started streaming down my face as I held Tyrone's head in my hands. I kissed his lips and he was silent.
"Tyrone... Tyrone, talk to me, baby. Stay with me. Stay with me." Then he slipped into unconsciousness. I then heard the sirens and stood up and started yelling for them to get their sorry butts over here. Well, I didn't exactly say that, I was just screaming, really. They came over and put him on a stretcher and into the ambulance. I started to go in to sit with him, but the medics protested, and said I couldn't.
"Why the heck not?!?" they still just shook their heads. I threw up my hands and ran off to his car. I had stolen his keys earlier so he wouldn't leave me (not that he would anyway, but I did just in case) and I drove to the hospital.

I reached the hospital before the medics did. "Geez, I really need to get out of this town." I thought. As soon as he was admitted into a room, I went to the lady at the desk.
"Tyrone Campbell." I said.
"Are you family?" She asked. I swore under my breath. They wouldn't let me in unless I was family.
"Yes," I lied. "I'm his sister." She was silent for a minute, looking at something on the computer.
"Tyrone Campbell doesn't have a sister." She said, looking at me from the top of her pink reading glasses.
"Yes he does, I'm his long lost sister, lady. Just let me into the damn room!" I said as I pounded my fist on the table, rustling her papers. She looked at me like she had never heard someone swear at her before and then she gave me the room number. I sprinted up 2 flights of stairs which was faster than the elevator. I burst into his room, shoving his keys into my pocket and pushing my hair out of my face. He was still unconscious. Doctor Bristow was standing by his bed looking at some papers.
"Doctor Bristow?" I said.
"He's going to be fine, Trinitey. Don't worry. And you can stay as long as you like."
"Thanks doctor." I smiled at him and he walked out of the room.